I was gone from the blogging world for about 2 months. Last time I blogged it was sometime in February.

They say that in order to be found, you must lose yourself first and I had to do just that. Not only have I been nonstop busy, I had to be able to step away and get out of my head. The more that I think the more that my brain hurts. By blogging, I was forcing myself to think of situations I felt it was better left alone.

By know, we know that Iactuallylike blogging. It’s about the words and how they become manifested on the page.I just had to get away,for my sanity sake.

But I’m back and I promise not to leave for such a long period of time.

It’s important to always recognize, you just need a getaway.

<3 MT

Welp,

I’m a bit late on this post but clearly it’s already February. If this is any tone of what the rest of this semester is going to look like then this year is going to fly by us. Where has time gone? Time is passing us in the blink of a second. Before you know it things that we’ve been anticipating all along are going to be passing us by. Both months came and went without anything that was left behind.. Well, that’s a lie- in December the newest addition to my family was added when Victor Noel was born on December 21st just a few days shy of my baby cousin Javier Jean turning 3 years old. Now they are such breathe of fresh air and just joys to have in our family. Thank God for bringing just amazing little men into our family.

But, other than that… Not much is memorable in those two months, I’m two months closer to graduating from college, which everyday becomes of more of a fear and more of a scary notion. Time, my friends, waits for no one. So seize the moment and live life to the fullest because at the end of the day things will pass us by before we can even grasp what is going on in our lives.

Take life by the horns.

<3 MT

I believe everyone should have expectations how they want to be treated in all of their relationships..

There is nothing wrong with having standards. The important part is when you stick by your expectations and don’t lower them, EVER. Now, there are unrealistic expectations that people have. Those, should be negotiable. But don’t ever, ever, ever lower your standards because you are lonely and you need the companionship of someone.

I mean, it is better to be alone than in bad company. (that sounds a million times better in Spanish). I’ve lived with this being one of the rules I live by, because there is no real reason why anyone should find justification of themselves in another person. People do not fill voids that we have, the voids fill themselves with enough care and enough attention.

So no, I’ve never just had someone in my life because it was convenient to or because I couldn’t do better. If you’re in my life is because I’ve honestly believed that you are meant to be in my life.

The way I’ve practiced this the most, has been through my relationships with guys. I’ve been single for a really long time and not once did I feel that I needed to talk to a guy to feel any better. It would’ve been fine. But I didn’t need them.

I needed myself. I know I can be by myself. I know that I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve. There’s so much power in being able to believe that. 100% of the time.

<3 MT

Now, we all have them. Insecurities that is. We all have things that we want to change or better about ourselves. But where does it become a problem?

It becomes a problem when we allow it to plague our thoughts and our every day activities and make us feel that we are not good enough. Everyone has areas they are constantly improving and they need to work on. The issue begins when you start projecting those insecurities on other people and make them feel less of a person.

But, I try not to hide who I am to people. What that means is, if in conversation- I feel compelled to share a very personal story or part of me, I do. There is not reason to put a front, or to try and act like nothing gets to me. While, there is a level of myself that I do protect from others by not revealing too much of myself. I have always been told to stay true to myself, which in reality, I’ve always try to do even if I go down the beaten path, I always come back to who I really am.

Insecurities can eat away at people. But the truth is none of us are perfect and the more we try to be perfect, the more obsessed with our insecurities we become.

I’ll leave you with this:

There is power in owning those insecurities but not letting them own you.

<3 MT

Talk about the end of this year coming on quickly… November, was no joke it was over in the blink of an eye.

Now, there are a couple of things that I disliked during this month, the fact that fall decided not to make an appearance. It’s my favorite season and now it’s just going to roll into the winter without any lovely in between. Last month, was also shitty- it was filled with nonstop meetings, classes, homework, and all while trying to balance my personal and social life.

But other than being super busy, November didn’t bring much into my life. So I’m glad to say that I’m glad it’s December and that finals are next week because Vacation is practically here. I’m starting to become a little gloomy about graduation coming.. This next semester will sure fly by. It always does.

<3 MT